We have all felt moments When it Goes Right. Deep in our hearts things click- satisfaction, calm, rest, joy, peace all come together in a satisfying sigh of right-ness. It is attainable. It is what keeps us seeking the ideal by bettering ourselves and our children/families one day at a time through teaching at home, practicing what we learn, and mastering what we practice. It is what causes people to comment on our children. If you are like us, you get tired of hearing how ‘lucky’ you are and one day become bold enough to reply, “This is not luck, it is bloody hard work in action.” With a sweet smile, of course!
What about the other moments, those that might dominate our days- When it Goes Wrong. As homeschoolers we bravely and daily place ourselves to be confronted with the reality of our shortcomings. Our need for growth. One of my favorite realizations was that we are so eager to enter Heaven that we choose go through the fires of sanctification daily rather than baby step our way there during weekends/holiday (growth) moments scattering fire to get us through to a peace filled, quiet house Monday. Who does this?! Really! If given the choice, using your brain rather than your soul, everyone would choose quiet days, clean homes, adult conversation. But you did not- we do not….
…..and things go wrong constantly. Well, not before the sweet little feet hit the floor each morning. As I type I struggle with myself over waking the children or taking (stealing) another 30 minutes of quiet time to get my heart-thoughts on to paper. In releasing myself from carrying guilt all day, I must simply make a clear and concrete decision rather than ‘just a few minutes more.’ They will remain in blessed Dream Land for 30 more minutes! My timer is set. My resolve is made. My guilt laid down. That, at least, is one thing that will not Go Wrong today.
Other things will go wrong- certainly. I don’t expect them, prepare for them, nor look for them, but I am not surprised when they pop into our lives. They have become just another welcomed moment in my day. One that shows me where I can self improve as a wife, mother, teacher, friend. Knowing that my days can Go Right places the times when it Goes Wrong in just the right light. His Light that assures me that I can do better. I can change. I can try again to model the actions I desire to impart to my family/children through this journey of home education. Things that Go Wrong are simply signs that we, ourselves, need to re-direct our thoughts, energies, and efforts. The children will, most assuredly, eventually, follow.